june twentey.
I am in a relationship, a straight one not those gay ones, though i’d be open to trying if my girlfriend is too. before i was in this relationship, i viewed my lonly self as the character TED from HOW I MET YOUR MOTHER. I viewed myself as this hopeless romantic, non-pedophilic person. And i think many single teenagers view themselves the same way, where just like the plot device in HIMYM, falling in love is the main goal in life, it comes before everything. its love baby, the cure to all illnesses.
but than, somthing really odd happened when i started dating my crush, i realised i still have issues, a lot of them. and that sounds obvious! but for me, who had liked this girl for a long long time, i was expecting after the first kiss, my life would be absolute bliss. Cause for me, this girl WAS THE GOAL. it didnt matter all the pain i'd have to go thriugh to wife up this lady, cause it was all going to go away!
BUT ITS NOT JUST ME MAKING THESE MISTAKES, ITS EVERY SINGLE ONE OF YOU NICE GUYS. ITS ALL YOU FUCKING PEOPLE WHO WATCH ‘CORECORE’ VIDEOS ON TIKTOK.
the literal stupidest thing i did when crushing on this woman was not getting help, due to the thoughts. I had a brain dissorder and instead of getting therapy or eating magic shit or whatever people do to rid themselves of the wurm, the cure for me was clear. all i ever had to do was get close to this really cool girl, than my brain was fixed. oops.
Thats why i think so many of my fellow teenage boys are being black pilled. These teenage boys feel bad about themselves cause no girl wants them, then they find these really hot guys online telling them the reason they are like this is cause
a) they dont fuckmaxx
b) women arent doing enough housework
these infulencers are like jesus to these guys. saying the exact things the shepards want to hear. and my main piece of advice is, you gotta figure somthing else out. to all of you fucking soy boys. being in a relationship should not be plan a to getting you to love yourself. thats unfair to whoever your advancing and its unfair to your heart. figure out somthing you love, figure out yourself. love yourself. than eat a womans ass. or maybe your just broken and cant be fixed, happens to the best of us.
